Not me. My cousin.
I don’t hang out with him as much compared to when we were kids. He’s got his gangsta life and I’ve got my fairly straight edge one. I went with him to do errands today though, as well as him paying me back some money I loaned him. We bought supplies for his boy Royce, who’s life he unfortunately can’t be a major part of at this point in time due to conflicts with the mother. It also just happened to be only the second time I’ve seen the kid.
We arrived at the apartment and the aunties were welcoming. Boy, did that baby glow like the night sky on the fourth of July when he saw his papa though. Its crazy. Its madness. How two parents who I assume can’t stand each other can create such innocence and wonder. How such a little lad could calm a frequent storm called his father. How love, seemingly like energy, does not completely vanish but instead takes another form.
Shy but joyful, I managed to play with him for a bit with some help from his dad. Kid giggled and laugh like no other and I couldn’t help but be infected. Then his dinner time came and we had to say our byes.
On the way back to the car, my cousin exclaimed
"Man. You know sometimes I wake up and forget I have a kid."
I laughed a bit because I know he has a way with exaggeration.
I hope he never truly forgets though. And I hope I get to hang out with them more. And if worse comes to worse, I know I ain’t no godfather but I will guardian the hell out of that baby if need be.
I’ve been having some whacky ass dreams lately. Actually, throughout the course of just today/last night.
First I was hanging out with my ex. The first actually. Odd enough because I hadn’t seen/talked to her in years. But we ended up going to some family friend’s house where she got drunk then we had some adventures. The dream was actually quite long and it was actually pretty damn sweet hanging out with her despite our relationship being the definition of puppy dog love and not lasting long. I wonder what shes up to.
Second dream I was in some kind of NBA game. It was 4v4 and my team was Kobe, I think Lebron or some other superstar and I forget who the third guy was. Despite having some awesome dudes as teammates, I was p dang scared because I’m literally only 5’10 which is a manlet in NBA sizes and I have next to no basketball knowledge. Luckily that dream ended quickly.
baby sloths taking a bath.
highlights include: squeaking, flower-eating
oh my god
they hang the sloths up to dry
hibiscus flowers are like sloth chocolate
I’VE SEEN THIS SO MANY TIMES BUT FUCK ME IF I’LL EVER GIVE UP A CHANCE TO WATCH IT ONE MORE TIME OR MAYBE 20
I WANT A BABY SLOTH